I Am No Longer Afraid

June 24th, 2021

I’ve seen a lot of things in my short life, and I’ve experienced a lot of things. Many of those things — most, perhaps — have been evil. They have been dark. They have been lies and deceptions. Not all, however. There has been Good and there has been Light and there has been Truth. But in my fear, and in an effort to distance myself from the darkness, I have shunned everything. In some cases, I have shunned even the Good and the Light and the Truth without meaning to, in a proverbial “throw the baby out with the bathwater” sort of way.

In reflecting upon particular instances that my memory has been especially troubled by lately, I have realized something: in those cases, the good was mixed in with the evil, but in my fear, I simply labeled it all as evil.

That was a mistake.

Wherever there is Good, Evil will be found with it; and where there is Evil, there will be Good to find.

This is not to say that evil and good are the same, as some seem to believe; and I’m not making the argument that evil and good peacefully coexist, and that one could not be without the other. I’m not arguing that line of logic here. But I have realized that sometimes there is evil where there is good because evil tries to corrupt the good. Evil tries to destroy and overcome Good, Dark tries to overcome Light, and Lies try to murder the Truth, because that is the nature of Darkness.

But Evil will never overcome Good, Dark will never overcome Light, and Truth will never be silenced. Instead, we hold onto Truth and overcome Evil with Good, and the Dark with Light.

But how can we do this if we shun Light? If we shun what is Good? If we bury the Treasure God has given to us and hide it away in fear?

Goodness comes from God. Light comes from God. In His love, He pours out His Goodness and His Light upon us, into us, and ultimately, through us. In this way, Light shines in the Darkness, and Goodness overcomes Evil. But if we don’t allow Him to pour His Light and Love into us, and ultimately through us… if we instead hide our Light — the Light He has given to us — under a basket, or bury our Treasure — the Treasure He has given to us — in fear, then what good can they do?

What good can we do?

True that Dark can masquerade as Light. It can try. It does try. I’ve seen it happen many times. Evil can try to hide under a cloak of what seems to be good deeds that look right, and practice its deceit by using right words that sound good. And I’ve seen men and women try to wield the Light — the Truth — for themselves and control it, using it as a weapon to beat others into submission, to build their own kingdoms, to gain for themselves whatever it is they desire, or to cause harm to others in various ways. But that is not of God. That is not the Goodness of God. That is not His Light, nor His Love, but a great deception!

And in my fear of those people, and in my contempt for their pride and their arrogance and their deceitfulness, I have, in effect, shunned what is Good in order to stay away from that which is Evil. I have shunned the Light for fear of the Dark. In this way, I have been no better than the prideful: they attempt to pass off their Darkness as Light and their Egos as Goodness, and I have hidden the Light away for fear it would be extinguished by the Dark, hiding Goodness away in an attempt to protect it from Evil.

And this is not of God, either.

I am learning that if we neither love ourselves overly much, nor despise ourselves overly much, but if we instead ask the Spirit to pour the Love of God and the Light of God into us and through us, we will be shown our proper place. And instead of selfishly trying to use the Light and the Good for our own gain — or hiding the Light and the Good out of fear — His Love and Light will transform us and shine through us, illuminating the darkness within us, and overcoming evil.

The Darkness will try to overcome, but it cannot if we stand up and hold out our Light, without fear. If we be the Light, without fear. When we allow the Love of God to be poured into us and through us, we have no fear of Darkness, whether within or without, and no fear of Evil.

Through all of these thoughts, I have come to accept that I am a “Child of the Light” — a “Child of the White,” as we were sometimes called when being taught in the astral by the Spirit Guides — who is now all grown up and trying to come to terms.

Yes, there was a lot of evil that happened to me as a child, and I had no choice but to be involved in a lot of darkness. But there was also a lot of Light. I just couldn’t see it before because I was so focused on the dark. And yes, there was evil around, but not because we were evil. Not because we were a part of their darkness. But because we were there to counteract it. To fight it with Light and Love.

And I realize now that’s what my Spirit Guides throughout my life were teaching me: to spread the Light of God to others by allowing His Light to shine through me.

I’m still not sure of a lot of things; and there are some things I remember happening that I question as to whether it was of the Light or not.

But I am no longer afraid.